right now, i am all wrapped in ecclesiastes. i read it completely the other night, and now i am taking about 3 chapters at a time. at first, i was a bit discouraged by the words. i felt like it was depressing, and not life-breathing. but then i got thinking about Jesus. ecclesiastes is in the OT, and all the 'meaningless'ness that Solomon (i believe) is talking about changed radically with Jesus. also, i love how this book is so raw and the author talks unabashedly about the ways of this world. he says how they are meaningless and chasing after them to give you life is like 'chasing the wind - meaningless'. how true! and how lovely it is to read something in the bible that can be easily translated to people who don't believe.
i prayed the other day that God would, for the first time in my life, give me a heart for the lost. i know that in the bible, He tells us to go and tell the world about Him; that is a command. i have never felt qualified or even desired it in any way. God is bringing me out of the darkest part of my life, so far, and i know truth is actually true for certain now. why wouldn't i want to share? share with my life, my deeds, my words. i feel that is why God brought me to ecclesiastes this week. it makes sense because i have been that person of the world ... so close to that place in almost every minute still. without Jesus, i am nothing. i have no heart for love. i have no heart to bless others. i have no heart to please Him. it's just sadness.
i have finally posted a blog like micah would post. how interesting. thank you God for bringing whitney back! it's nice to feel meaning again.
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