lately.

for a while now i have been doing things differently.

- i watch zero t.v., except for the 2 seasons of gilmore girls that i keep watching over and over.

- i eat a lot less. it started bc of nerves, but now i am just used to it.

- i rarely dry my hair anymore. i've decided that it is 1. easier, and 2. better for my hair; so, it works.

- i spend less time at home. it's nice to have a different routine.

- i'm in church and doing church-related things more. great people, great messages, great times.

- i read a lot more. reading blue like jazz, at the moment.

- i support my friends and desire to help them more. i want to get outside of myself. being selfish doesn't satisfy.

- i sleep less. getting to bed at 11+ and finally falling asleep at 1 or 2. i'm glad it's almost summer bc getting to classes is becoming difficult.

- i write a lot more. journaling my heart out, jotting down poetry, documenting my dreams.

i don't know why i am doing things differently these days. i guess i just need to change up my routine and figure myself out. i found myself for about a month a half being depressed and never getting out of bed. i finally had to decide to get up and make the most of my college days, or lay in bed and cry about the things i can't change. i still find myself a couple of days a week just being a bum and turning into a hermit. i find myself missing someone still, but i'm learning and growing and praying and dreaming and wishing and loving and hoping.