today is a good day. not a lot has changed in a little over 24 hours, but i am feeling better for sure. what i've really been meditating on today is how i want my life to be like, what i want it to look like, what type of person i truly want to be. i really want to think outside of the relationship aspect of life, and just focus on myself for a while.
i talked to a good friend last night, for like forever. it was mostly computer info and food related, but we talked about relationships a couple of times. i just got to thinking if i am attractive to the type of man that i want to be attractive to. that might not make much sense. so, instead of thinking if i am attractive to men, i am going to focus on the person i want to be, and if a man is attracted to that, then ... that's cool. haha.
i am not turning myself off from relationships, but i am taking a super step back, but in the right direction. i want to be healthy, strong, able to stick to my guns about what i want with my heart and life. i know this might make me seem like i have been changing myself for men, but i think i've always been doubtful with what it is that i really want for my life. at 22, i guess i can slow my roll and take time to mull over myself: my heart, my needs, my desires, my goals, my body, ...
so basically, in a nutshell, this is me taking time for me. i'm kind of excited about it. world: wide open. anything is possible now.
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